the mythology of lilix

18 candles speech

2012-02-09T21:31:00.000+08:00

i was happy yet surprised when i knew that i will be part of the 18 candles of my brother's girlfriend. it took me a day to absorb that it is real since it is my first time cause my peers never celebrated theirs so i didn't have the chance to be in one.
tomorrow we are going to buy some clothes for me appropriate for the event. that makes me excited too.

my little baby brother

2012-02-07T21:12:00.000+08:00

finally my brother was here. kinda late but it's okay as long as he's here, he's now safe. my baby brother is all grown up now at 22 years old. i can no longer can call him sweetie pig or something since it is no longer appropriate or he can be pissed off upon hearing it. i know he matured a little already and i continue treating him that way though i missed the child named markee. my little baby brother.

i love slippers

2012-02-02T15:03:00.000+08:00

i still like the havaianas tropical kit orange. love seeing them once in a while. though i know it will take some hard time to buy another havaianas i've been eyeing. it's havainas fun in grape. i guess i can only buy that on my birthday. anyways when i started to count my havs, it reaches to 5 including those havs that i have been using. plus, i have some doll shoes and one sckechers tone ups. so many and i am happy.

grounded

2012-02-01T15:11:00.001+08:00

here i am again , i splurge on havaianas again. i break the rule of saving. i only have few hundreds on my bank account. oh damn. i am also grounded on using ebay. the issue was i bought another havaianas when our own family financial statements go haywire. my mother is right i shouldn't splurge but my addiction to havaianas is alarming.

now, i guess the violet havaianas i've eyeing will be bought in june, by the time my birthday arrives, i will buy that for myself.

best thing i never had

2012-01-25T14:00:00.001+08:00

i am no longer in love with him. finally. how i wished i can say it on his face. the music stops playing for his heart. my heart is now looking for someone else. the poem for him run out of rhyme. the smell of roses withered in a glance. love is not for you anymore. so rejoice and continue your love for someone else. it is meant to be this way so i won't be hurt. good bye mr. player, this is the beginning for something new for me. and i'm lucky you are not the one

regrets on the middle week of january

2012-01-22T21:48:00.000+08:00

there are times i had bull shit moments thinking of him.

there are times i regretting why i didn't defend my love for him.

there are times i think if he's worth the fight.

i guess i already learned my lessons and it should end there.

why i shouldn't be in singapore?

2012-01-12T12:04:00.000+08:00

all right, so my friend Lorgie wants to work in Singapore and i am happy for her. I know she how to live right together with her father. I admire her on how she loves her father.

But for me, Singapore is a big no-no! it is because the one who broke my heart but never my ex is now based there. I wish if i will visit singapore i won't see him since by now, i know he is taken and seeing him again taken is a bullshit. since i don't have relationships nowadays. how can i have one? since i don't go outside and party and mingle. i don't blame them if they told that to me many times because they were right.

I might go to Alaska, Canada or London instead but definitely no Singapore. it is ok if it's only a tourist visit or connecting flight but i won/t work thete. i don't want our paths to meet again.

lessons for 2012.

2012-01-05T15:27:00.000+08:00

my love life goes a little something like this:

the storm has passed, it rained hard on my parade, i cried over spilled a milllion times and everytime i see him it killed me softly. i must admit i fell in love with him, for who he are, for the devil he are and i ended up not getting him for me in return because he is good damn liar.But i still love him.

he is Singapore right now since 2008 and i finally learned he has girlfriend with him there. how adorable that i was researching his whereabouts in the net and all i got is a small picture of him and her on foursquare.com smiling. bullshit. hehehe. a good laugh will end it. a good mischievous laugh. anyways, he's already already almost over me. I should take the taxi away from him instead and start a new life. It is really unworthy crying over spilled milk and that taught me a lesson.

defying gravity

2012-01-04T14:14:00.000+08:00

well, i guess all things are under my control. i ended my frienship to a group of girls. i ended my psyhology course. i started working. i felt happy but somehow i wished i didn't missed school. someone is saying their goodbyes and there is someone still in love with someone who doesn't seem to care. irony. well, i guess i must defy the gravity.

blog hiatus for a month i think....

2011-12-06T13:48:00.000+08:00

i guess i went to hiatus this last month. i don't have anything to blog about. nothing interesting. it's just that i finally decided to quit school permanently and no intention of going back. i'm no longer pissed off, i still ride his tricycle but i am careful talking to him this time.

you know, everything is boring to me during this period of my life. i guess i may be in hiatus again sooner.

you suck big time

2011-11-08T15:56:00.001+08:00

i was pissed off this noontime. i swear i won't ride his tricycle again. he is overpricing my fare to him plus he has the guts to tell me i won't be his customer no more. i hate him. he is so mean. he just waited for me that's it and he's overpricing me. since then, now i won't ride his tricycle again and i will find someone else.

speechless and wishes.

2011-11-05T16:29:00.001+08:00

3 celebrations. november. speechless. nothing to blog. too busy. with work. only work. is craving over takoyaki balls. wants to be a call center agent someday.

smooth flowing..

2011-11-02T16:05:00.000+08:00

things are running smoothly. my 2 orders didn't came so i can save by the end of the month, i am only using the money or my wage until th 15th and plus the hand me down money from ate lining. eventually, i am debt-free and can save in my bank.

also, nov 4, i have a birthday eatout with my high school friends. usually it is late night at around 7pm. right now it is complicated since i don't know where is the place exactly we will dine

lunch bonding

2011-11-01T19:57:00.000+08:00

we had our lunch at Mary Jay restaurant in malabon. it was an ideal time for family bonding. I enjoyed the food and the atmosphere of the bonding of the clan

long weekend...

2011-10-31T21:56:00.001+08:00

yes because it's holiday of the dead. for the first time in many years, i once again visited the mauloseum of the sioson clan. i am happy since i used to go there during my childhood years. now i am an adult, i was in memory lane.

the inner researcher...

2011-10-19T14:01:00.000+08:00

my inner researcher is here again. then, i stumbled to my former friend's profile in facebook and i found out she's now working in a call center. well, she looks more classy now than before. i don't see her as a friend anymore since she is only with me if i am at my best, she never considers me a best friend during high school just as she always says during our high school time and she also wasn't there when i feel alone in the world. so that's what you call a best friend. too shallow that's why i dropped her like a hot potato when she tried to contacted me again. i told her i don't know her. anyways, she seems elevated than my status. it's okay though it's like a slap in my face because i can't even passed a call center interview. now, i guess i saw the ending of our rainbow and it will no longer shine like that. i guess i should be picky in choosing call centers now if ever i applied.

direct selling, direct payment

2011-10-17T11:16:00.000+08:00

another splurges in avon products. my order finally arrives yesterday costing me less than 700 pesos and must be paid by october 15. i am now eager in making the day present so i can pay in advance.

right now i am hungry and i only took a coffee for breakfast so i can avoid sleepiness.

mission done!

2011-10-15T11:08:00.001+08:00

i attended my niece's girl scout investiture early this morning. i was with my aunt susan. the investiture only lasts for almost an hour. so we ate at mcdo for breakfast. i got to work today at around 10am.

finally yesterday i deposited some of my wage to the bank. i am happy it is growing now. also, i am craving for some takoyaki balls again.

wish he will passed by the help of his project.

2011-10-11T13:01:00.001+08:00

i wish leomar will passed his subject project. i hope i did the right thing. never mind the freebies. i care about how he will graded by his prof. so i won't be a disgrace in the projects world.

to buy a havaianas or to buy a book. let me count the ways. which one is better.

of takoyaki balls and money...

2011-10-06T14:34:00.000+08:00

i deposited my 300 to bpi this afternoon. afterwards, i buy 4 orders of my favorite takoyaki balls on a takoyaki balls stall in front of Immaculate Concepcion Church. it's been a long time i haven't eaten takoyaki balls and now i had my craving.

just a little more and i can be saved up to more. i am enjoying my saving scheme on my digital piggy bank.

digital piggy bank.

2011-10-05T15:03:00.001+08:00

the saving scheme i was planning is currently happening. previously i have open a bank account under my name. now i am saving some money for it. it's like money management without a finance analyst. hehehe i guess my finance analyst is my mom who is keen on reminding me to save.

but for me, if i want something i will save some more for my digital piggy bank and i can buy what i want. but this time i'm not into buying something. i am eager to save.

payday hurrah...

2011-09-30T15:31:00.002+08:00

i only have one hour and my mother hasn't arrived yet from the bank. my payday today is so nerving and i am nervous not to pay in time, on a promised time to samira. gosh help me god. let my mother arrive now.

online shopping is my weakness

2011-09-26T15:30:00.001+08:00

i promised to myself i won't go overboard it but i never promised i would stop it. online shopping is one of my hobbies nowadays. since i can't go to the mall, i can have it at the tip of the keyboard of my personal computer. right now, i've been eyeing some clothes from a shopping website of a former high school classmate and gladly, it 's now reserved to me.

i'm so over him.....

2011-09-23T11:45:00.000+08:00

truth came out and i discovered ds is not cs. so i guess i just having illusions about it. wanting to be loved i think that cs is playing a different character again to get with me. but i guess it is more of a illusion. and thank god it ended when i discovered through researches on the net about ds's background. though i'm only 75% sure he is not ds.

christmas is coming, recession is felt over our business. well, things are really like ups and downs.

upset

2011-09-10T09:48:00.002+08:00

I was so pissed off last night. a certain barangay official told us we are too much noisy yet we are celebrating my uncle's birthday. they are showing power but to those who do videoke like us, they don't bother. until i am still pissed.

trying to be thrifty

2011-09-05T15:44:00.002+08:00

i finally got my BPI Easy Saver ATM card. i can now save for my rainy days.

fire phobic

2011-09-03T13:27:00.000+08:00

there was a commotion last night. and it was about the illegal connection of our neighbors that almost make a fire because of a burnt electrical wire. since i was phobic about fires, i had a terrible time sleeping. i heard that they just buy another electrical wire to replace the burnt wire. i feel nervous.

i didn't make it to work today because i had a headache when i woke up. i tried sleeping instead.

gotta move on

2011-09-01T09:35:00.000+08:00

so i read his blog a thousand times thinking he's pertaining his love to me. but that's what i thought. he's in love with another girl, the love of my life is in love with someone else. well, damn it! i should move on now and i must forget him like i did with jeffrey.

annual emotional checkup :P

2011-08-31T17:06:00.000+08:00

for the records straight, i'm no longer in love with jeffrey, my first love. he probably married and had kids now and i don't care anymore. but i still wanted to make friends with him if it is still okay.

also, after able to face of the monsters of my life, i began as a new person. i'm no longer afraid to face the ghosts of my past. i know it will happen and i am looking forward to face the mistakes i've done in the past. one thing i promise, i will give myself to the person i really love and i won't use sex like a hobby.

after so many days and years of thinking if he ever love me and if i ever love me, i came face to face with the truth that i honestly love him (name withheld upon request) i know he done so many faults but i am willing to embrace him again to my life if he still wants me. i know he is in singapore right now and belong to someone else. if by chance, i met him again, i won't let him go and he will be my man. but if fate doesn't want us together. well, so be it, i'll set him free. i just wish one day i can borrow him cause he thought how to love. things i never learned with jeffrey, because i only felt puppy love and infatuation over jeffrey.

reality sucks

2011-08-30T19:09:00.001+08:00

hmmm speechless but i wanted to go back to school. but there are some things in life i can't control. reality steps in when you are in cloud 9 heaven.

angst

2011-08-27T15:56:00.000+08:00

i am definitely pissed off. the bag that was to be sent to us left by aug 24 and it's already aug 27. where the hell is the bag. now, i won't take JRS Express as my courier for their bad service. it's only coming from quezon city to malabon. where the hell is that stupid shipment?

aim for the right

2011-08-26T20:42:00.000+08:00

i got my second wage and it was well budgeted. i wasn't even able to have my pedicure. well, everything will be fine soon after i have my bpi atm open once again.

to fed the gastronomic pleasure

2011-08-22T16:25:00.001+08:00

i treated myself with a jollibee delivery. i missed fast food so i decided to order some today.

so i ended up at the family business's office

2011-08-21T18:36:00.001+08:00

yeah right, i am stucked, and i can't go back to school this semester cause my mom said we don't have enough money for my continuation of college education. well, damn!

A "No" for two masters

2011-08-19T15:52:00.001+08:00

i looked over MCU's website and found out October 24 will be start of second semester. I don't know if i will be allowed to go back by my parents since i am now an office staff of our family business. I really wanna go back but i am enjoying my work. i can't work for two masters so i gotta choose. and it's difficult.

first wage

2011-08-15T19:03:00.002+08:00

i finally got my first wage. but i blew it all for 4 cds of my favorite singers. i swear i won't buy cds for a quite a while now. i now wanted to buy some blouse from samira and i promise i will buy from her soon.

office worker

2011-08-11T16:16:00.002+08:00

internet connection was made yesterday at the office. i can say i can stay because i am always online. my job is not tiring but you need to be in complete attendance to answer phone calls. right now i am having a decision not to enroll next semester and try working at our office for a while.

job offer

2011-08-04T19:48:00.000+08:00

i was offered my mom a job at our family business. my duty was only to answer the phone. i accepted the offer but i am still in my wish that i want to study in November. i'm in dilemma once again

auditory hallucinations

2011-08-03T04:26:00.000+08:00

auditory hallucinations that tells me there are a house burning in our neighborhood this wee hours of the morning is disturbing me. so i decided to go online to make it disappear even for a while. i need cash right now and i am losing chances. our family business is not doing well this year and i have a strong feeling that my studies will also put to a test whether i will study again or not. god help me! again, this is reality and it sucks big time for me at this point of my life

welcome august

2011-08-02T17:54:00.001+08:00

august is here and i am counting months...

i'm better with school right now nevermind the hazards

2011-07-30T14:22:00.000+08:00

i xeroxed my psychology curriculum yesterday. my idea is that i have some extra when i enrolled this last week of october. i really wanted to go back to school now and thank god that august is coming. ohhh... i am painfully wanting to go back and i hope it would happen

uncontrollable circumstances.

2011-07-25T14:29:00.000+08:00

i am going down and my friendship is kinda going down too and i can't avoid it. i feel lonely but i don't wanna blame myself for it because i lack money or i needed the money for something else. hmmm... uncontrollable circumstances.

a little shopping at SM North Edsa

2011-07-24T13:18:00.000+08:00

last afternoon my mom, tito jojo, tita beng and me went to SM north edsa to do some little shopping. i was able to buy some Patrick Starfish blue XL shirt. we ate at Ineng's Sky Garden. I ordered 2 orders of inihaw na liempo and ensaladang talong. i was really full last night though i was able to ate one burger from burger king before i go to sleep.

that's it. new memories again tomorrow. :D

yesterday was my lucky day

2011-07-22T11:59:00.000+08:00

yesterday was my lucky day and also a tough day :D :D first in the morning at around 10 am , I was able to apply for my Social Security ID and give my biometrics. I finished it exactly twelve noon. by 2pm, I went to Mangunay-Hizon to see my optometrist and had my glasses fixed with new nosepads that cost me 80 pesos. next one by 4pm, i went to dampalit and get some cash gift from my aunt lining. I was there for only 15 minutes and left after drinking one glass of cold water.

by 5pm, i arrived at Victory Mall in caloocan to do some boyfriend polo shirt shopping. I had a tough time cause i expected i can get 2 blouses in a single store at once but somehow i was pressured to examine every store if they had size 25 of that square design of polo than the checkered one. lucky me i was able to buy black and white and red and black. i could not ask for more. I feel contented. next time i will buy some cycling shorts and some doll shoes in different color and one in white for school use. :P

now i am back in being a homebody again.

waiting for october

2011-07-17T22:19:00.003+08:00

i want to go back to school. july is ending soon and i'm looking forward to august. i'm waiting for the end of october so i can now enroll if my father agreed with it. i promise i won't be a pain in the ass to them if i come back again.

i also praying for the fast recovery of my cousin Johan. he's such a cute boy!

quote of the day

2011-06-21T15:41:00.002+08:00

A woman can still love a man even if she already understands that he won't love her back.

dedicated to almost... :D

i wanna be in school

2011-06-20T21:11:00.002+08:00

i am bored lately. grounded. what i can do? i dunno know if i can be in school next semester but i am wishing.

reliving the illusions long ago

2011-06-15T11:03:00.000+08:00

that's what i thought. i thought i was over him. i still feel something despite the fact he hurted and fooled me some years ago. it seems in his blog he now cares for his new girlfriend and i am still invisible. wake up , joem, he is in singapore and probably doesn't care anymore about you. i must use my head this time.

it's time to say final goodbye to you, my friend.

2011-06-14T20:02:00.000+08:00

finally i stumbled on his blog.. but i don't remember that feeling anymore to him. i heard he was in singapore since 2008 and taken by someone else. i was hurt by what i have read and it pinpoints that he never loved me in return. it's now 2011 and i already moved on, i can basically i am free since i know he is a thousand miles away from our country. but what moves me is that i missed him sometimes though i know he is the something i never had and will never be having my lifetime.

anyways, i should be moving on...

no more birthday blues...

2011-06-04T13:58:00.001+08:00

i got a very happy birthday yesterday. i got so many cash gifts needed to fulfill my online fascination with signature bags. well, now is not my birthday but i feel contented and i don't even have time to frown.

relieved

2011-05-15T13:46:00.002+08:00

finally i have the money to buy the handbag i saw online. tomorrow is the day. i was glad that even if i don't go this semester, i have the bag so it's okay.

no school for the mean time

2011-05-10T18:08:00.000+08:00

i feel dishearted.

after learning from my dad that i won't be going to school this semester. he said i never went to school last semester due to many absences.

i was sad but well, just a little relieved since i am not yet ready to be in school that much because of my shortcomings.

a very long hibernation

2011-04-29T12:43:00.001+08:00

thinks effective tonight will be the start of a hibernation. A very long hibernation

it's been months and i haven't gotten my checkup to my psychiatrist and to my new gastroentologist. money is hard these day so i don't blame my parents.

it's all about the money

2011-04-12T21:36:00.001+08:00

yeah, right. money is my problem for this month and i am bankrupt. i badly want it but i don't know what to spend with it.

aquarium and paparazzi

2011-04-11T17:28:00.000+08:00

i feel this way. i hate to be put in the box. and i can't please people. i am living in a shadow of someone else.

my class card is here

2011-04-04T16:57:00.002+08:00

i finally got my class card and all my subjects are dropped. i was kinda nervous to feel that i have failure but instead i got a dropped grade. i was happy and in a way relieved since i can do that again.

peaceful, nice and calm

2011-03-29T12:44:00.001+08:00

my sleep is back to normal. my mother got a her ankle sprain and i haven't gotten my shrink checkup for some six months. should i worry about it? i guess not and i am not into worrying. i just wanna relax and unwind.

overnight

2011-03-26T09:17:00.002+08:00

we're off to Mexico, Pampanga for a family bonding overnight. so i woke up early and i took a bath too so early to freshen it up. i hope we can enjoy the day and night away.

it lies to God

2011-03-25T19:13:00.001+08:00

got my finals permit and just awaiting the class cards day. i feel negativity about it though i assumed it won't be as bad as i imagine. only god can help me

it feels like

2011-03-24T00:46:00.002+08:00

i feel i done something wrong and not right in school but i can't blame myself and anyone. i guess because i suddenly lose the will to continue unless there are some restrictions first that must be done.

ok

2011-03-19T12:12:00.000+08:00

got my pedicure. woke up earlier than usual. is happy because my cousin princess is graduating from her nursing course today.

Relaxing time at Sofitel Philippine Plaza last Jan 2009

2011-03-18T02:37:00.000+08:00

taken at Sofitel Philippine Plaza Hotel on Jan 30-31, 2009. i'm with my relatives and i wear the maroon jacket and aeropostolate blue shirt..

medical humdrum

2011-03-17T03:09:00.000+08:00

it's been six months and i haven't gotten my checkup on a gastroentologist and my psychiatrist. i have a beer belly-like stomach and until now they don't know what's the cost of it and why it grew big that way since i am not a beer drinker.

my family and i is currently having some problems and i can't ask them when i will go to my psychiatrist. the problem is my psychiatrist is awaiting the result from a gastroentologist which until now we have made an appointment.

relaxing time at Discovery Suites

2011-03-13T18:00:00.000+08:00

had an overnight stay at Discovery Suites. i am the one in violet sitting on the couch.

closure is the best medicine

2011-03-12T02:11:00.000+08:00

i can't fall asleep. the quake that hits japan is all over the news and it's buzzing on my head on how pity the quake caused Japan. also, i have two aunts there, two nieces in tokyo area and a friend in osaka area. so i am worried for them. it seems my cousin might be sleeping now since she doesn't answer my yahoo messages.

back to my old professor, if he had the balls to court me, i would probably give yes to him but he is a coward and he had no balls to defend me. hehehe past is painful, sometimes it's hard to get over it even after all these years if we don't have that so called closure they call it.

pause

2011-03-11T06:28:00.001+08:00

i'm nervous i can't fall asleep on events i can't control.

blame it to destiny

2011-03-09T21:04:00.000+08:00

decision-making is up again. but i decided not to continue it. i will take the risk of failing.

on the other hand, i still remember my first love, jeffrey sapitan but i'm no longer in love with him anymore. and when i remember my old professor, i somehow think when i took the risk of when during the time he is telling the truth to me and i forgive and accepted him. probably he will be man enough to be my man. and when the song "Back to December" by Taylor Swift plays, i always remember him. it's already almost a decade and i guess i'm no longer in love with him too and i have moved on. I remember him but i don't remember the feeling anymore.

but i have no regrets in the decisions i made in the past. because it's destined to happen.

mumbling

2011-03-07T00:36:00.002+08:00

i just don't know what to do with my life.

i need a job

2011-03-05T04:34:00.002+08:00

i am now currently on a job hunt. i update my account on jobstreet and i am praying i might get a job soon during my hiatus break from school. i am currently bored on school and i have slow learning ability for it. so i decided why not try working again and gain some money. to shoulder my expenses too.

it's a must

2011-03-04T02:25:00.002+08:00

i need to go to school tomorrow to arrange my conflicts in school. i must. i must not sleep it over.

a confession

2011-03-02T00:20:00.001+08:00

i sometimes feel my mom doesn't love me. we weren't close at all but in times of trouble, she always catches me. i don't share secrets, we don't share clothes and we have different things. somehow i think she doesn't trust me. so in case of need, i run to my grandmother (mother of my father) for comfort everytime i need talks to my life and to see the lights in life. somehow i wished my mother would take my grandmother's place when someone there to comfort me since i am a vacuum cleaner. even if my mom and i aren't that close, she still defend me when there are persons who harassed me. but it was too late when she did that to me. i guess that's the reason i am avoiding her sometimes.

hiatus, hibernation

2011-03-01T02:29:00.001+08:00

hiatus, hibernation, name it i have the longest slumber i ever had in years. i am still torn in school. since i haven't arrange a deal with my teachers. but i promised to myself i come back later this morning. the first of march is here and i haven't got any idea about my life and how it will push through.

nervousness

2011-02-26T15:41:00.002+08:00

i feel so nervous but i can't say it here cause it's forbidden talk. this is the web and everyone can see what i write. i wish things falls into places but its nearing conflict now. also, i am nervous about school, i feel i didn't do anything right this semester.

morning mistake

2011-02-23T14:22:00.001+08:00

i'm supposed to go to the university this morning but i woke up 2 hours ahead. must do it tomorrow or else i might get 5.00 on my class card.

it's not insomnia, i'm just disturbed.

2011-02-22T04:52:00.000+08:00

i can't fall asleep. i've been thinking lately about the outcome of my grades. i need to dropped all my subjects so i can go back by november. it's hard. seems i lost my interest in school. i lack friends now. i feel so alone. i know i am a vacuum cleaner when i am worrying and having problems and people around me cannot understand me. even my mother has no idea.

unplanned hibernation

2011-02-21T19:13:00.002+08:00

so the cat was out of the bag. my mother told me that i should stop next semester because i wasted today's semester's tuition by my absences. i can't blame her. but i think i have been on a hibernation these days

craving but hesitant

2011-02-20T21:06:00.001+08:00

i'm not sure if i want to go to school tomorrow but i need to fix my dropping form. don't know if they will order it.

i'm craving over KFC's chili lime chicken. i wanna feature it to my blog.

not depressed but wants to breakaway

2011-02-19T00:10:00.001+08:00

unjust, silent. wants to be alone, wants to be away. carry me away from here. i can't stand the commotion going on with my life. help

too much slumber

2011-02-15T17:57:00.001+08:00

done cityville.done facebook. done temptation of wife. just for today. i woke up at around 4pm and i may have a hard time having some sleep later.

whatever valentine's

2011-02-14T16:23:00.001+08:00

valentine's day and my parents are celebrating it, my brother's in school and he might as well be celebrating as a single or not... i am alone at home. i choose doozing some sleep than going to school. i might as well welcome some failing marks this semester.

reminiscing, i could still remember i watched a romantic comedy film alone and i was sandwiched by four couples who keep on talking sweet nothings in the span of the movie. i was so pathetic and kinda upset that i swore never to watch a romantic movie on a valentine's day if you are single.

i'm supposed to be attending my first checkup to the gastroentologist in mcu right before my classes. but it seems i must do it on wednesday instead.

anyways, happy hearts day everyone. i haven't eaten some lunch. i don't know if i will cook. whatever.

the cruelty of life's problems

2011-02-13T16:58:00.000+08:00

i woke up around 4pm today, cooked some skinless longganiza for my late lunch. tomorrow is a school day. i must go to school. the things that are happening to my life are quite upsetting. we still haven't gotten work. how about the future? how about the lives of our employees who rely to us? such a responsibility. it's nerving and sometimes i find myself alone and thinking about it.

also, the results of my blood chemistry is alarming. all went up, in time of my father's high hypertension under medication.

blood chemistry day

2011-02-12T15:59:00.000+08:00

i got my blood chemistry today at around 11am. by 4pm i will be heading to Malabon Diagnostic Laboratory for the result. i know the result was kinda high and by monday i will be face the doctor i haven't met, an internist/gastroentologist. i will be dropping by before i go to school.

no longer addicted

2011-02-11T16:53:00.001+08:00

i'm no longer addicted to Temptation of wife. i don't know how but the scenes were kinda long and i can't stand watching it. i may take glimpses but i am not religious in watching it anymore.

blog changing is challenging

2011-02-10T22:26:00.002+08:00

blog changing is challenging. i am tired of my blog layouts so i decided to change the layout of my 3 blogs. i am so eager to finished because i arranged our white dirty clothes.

slumber power

2011-02-09T14:02:00.001+08:00

i am so lazy today that i doze some few hours just to slumber more.

dropping form on my lap

2011-02-07T16:04:00.000+08:00

i already got my dropping form and later i will take an inventory on subjects i will dropped. then go to the dean later. i am so flushed with it since i am heading to the dean's office again. i don't feel sad anymore now that i am alone. i already answered the need of my aloneness. well, i have no classes tomorrow. i probably managed the dropping of subjects by wednesday.

a normal day

2011-02-04T15:26:00.002+08:00

the red flags are over. i already eaten a tikoy and i'm happy for that. dissed Marian Rivera again on the net. that makes me happy. a normal day

red flags

2011-02-02T19:36:00.001+08:00

i didn't make it to class. it's my 2nd day of my red flags. i don't have class tomorrow cause my teacher in zoology 2 already dropped me. i became irresponsible in school for quite some time and somehow i am summing up the results the hard way.

truth about zoology 2

2011-02-01T18:50:00.001+08:00

my subject in Zoology 2 dropped me due to absences. it is a 5 unit subject and i am not regretting it. i am not sad but i am in between learning it.

it's their 29th

2011-01-30T14:00:00.000+08:00

today is my parents's wedding anniversary and it's their 29th (yeah, in six months i will be 29 too :D) but i am happy for them. i am waiting for brother who was in a dentistry assembly in luneta. i even haven't got a shower yet because my parents too are not yet clean. hehehe

too late for semething

2011-01-29T15:01:00.001+08:00

i was thinking last night. i think i should dropped the tuesday-thursday morning class and retain the monday-wednesday class. i decided not to dropped all if it permits. also, i don't know if i still in passing rate cause my classmates are already dissecting and i'm nowhere.

break that i wanted

2011-01-28T14:40:00.001+08:00

i wonder if i will ever bought a havaianas this semester. since i was to dropped all my subjects by Monday and Tuesday. i wanna alright to myself that i don't wanna think for something. i just wanna have some break.

perhaps, by next semester after summer, i will only take 2 subjects and 3 is more if i think about it.

to dropped this semester or not?

2011-01-27T16:09:00.000+08:00

i think i should dropped all subjects by Monday. I wanna take a break for a while.

struggles

2011-01-25T01:58:00.000+08:00

its 2am and i am awake. heating the thermos so i can take coffee later. i can't asleep but i want to attend the morning class later. just to dropped them cause i am biologically having a hard time with the tuesday-thursday schedule. my body clock starts before noon and i had a hard time waking up early in the morning.i think i am a very sleepy person. also, i think by the time i rearranged my schedule. i can jazz up in class and try to save what's left in school for me. also, i realize i haven't taken my medicine. i think i should do it now. about the havaianas, i am still fantasizing and still saving for it but since i can't go to school, i am finding it hard to save. so i am trying right now. struggles, anyone?

absentee

2011-01-24T16:47:00.001+08:00

i simply absent today and it is my fault. i woke up late and i am that stupid to realize of all the things i will missed in school. damn~

marian sucks

2011-01-23T13:25:00.000+08:00

i hate marian rivera. she's a whore and a boyfriend stealer. she is also like a classless and no mannered kind of girl.

boring saturday

2011-01-22T23:21:00.001+08:00

watched miss you like crazy on cable and eat a pack of junk food and drank 4 doy pack of juices. boring

still a havaianas-zilla

2011-01-21T15:33:00.000+08:00

woke up at around 3pm. eat my lunch. open my email, facebook and blogger. and still wishing to save some for the havaianas i wanted.

laziness

2011-01-20T16:07:00.000+08:00

i didn't make it to class due to circumstances i couldn't avoid. plus, a got a reminder from my father about my laziness in school. i really wanna attend the class today but i can't avoid it. right now, i'm thinking of dropping my basic statistics and economics subject by monday.

Mine

2011-01-19T18:05:00.000+08:00

You said, "I remember how we felt, sitting by the water.
And every time I look at you, it's like the first time.
I fell in love with a careless man's careful daughter.
She is the best thing that's ever been mine."

***This is one of the lines in Taylor Swift's "Mine" that i loved listening to.