this is been buzzing my head since last week.

finally i have cried over former malabon city vice mayor Arnold vicencio's death but i haven't cried over Tito Jojo's sudden lay off. until i am still sad and guilty over his case. i wish he too can understand us. i know Tito Jojo didn't do anything bad so why get laid off. my father i know don't find tito jojo good, he sort of envious of him i guess. but i love my father, i respect my Tito Jojo. i know there will be a gap and things will not be the same again after the lay off thing. i wish my father and Tito Jojo won't quarrel.

i am losing faith

i finally know the truth, i read the email, i feel what my mother feels and i understand her this time. i also feel for my tito jojo but i can't do anything about it. it is quite a big rush and i didn't even expect that the lay off thing will happen. i been thinking about it for already 2 days and i don't wanna blame anyone else since our company is in recession. i hope what i feared most won't happen. i guess i should be back to my prayers again.

let March march its way to 2012......

first day of March, i am still craving for three things.

1. a mongolian rice bowl at Monggi's Mongolian Grill
2. a obento meal at Tokyo Tokyo Victory Mall
3. a 5 order of takoyaki balls from takoyaki kiosk in concepcion malabon

i can't buy them. tight budget. anways i can have them soon.

another one to spill, the havaianas fun in grape brazilian size 37/38 was sold out. so i guess i will buy the havaianas 2012 heroes wonderwoman in 37/38 when my birthday arrives. the havaianas fun in grape is on sale and much more cheaper than wonderwoman but i guess since it is sold out, wonderwoman is next in line.

lonely again

i feel alone yesterday until i met my friends on facebook and chat for a while. thanks for the internet and i won't feel blue.

reasonings

i am disconnected to the social world especially to my friends. i missed eating out with them, malling with them, and starbucks-ing with them. i am enclosed into this tiny office cornering the store wherein one mute guy who likes me but i despise a lot. i feel miserable. how i wish i finished a degree so i won't get enclosed in our family business. i wanna try call centers to perfect my english. i wanna be free. away from here.

the money for the cologne

the man whom i owed the victoria secret cologne hasn't arrived last saturday which is my due date. i wonder if he will arrive today. the 600 is still with me and i wish he get it later.

as for now

thank goodness i didn't see her and she's not around even though i wonder if they are bloody related. at least, the place was small so i use the time and space to find her and she was not there. ok now i am happy as for now

jitters again

the debut party will be at seven tonight and i am nervous i might see kristine bravo again. it's not that i hate her it's just that i am not ready to face her again because of the things she done to me. Jen's middle name is Bravo so there are possible connections they are relatives and i might see kristine in the flesh later and i hope not. i hope evrything will be fine later.

18 candles speech

i was happy yet surprised when i knew that i will be part of the 18 candles of my brother's girlfriend. it took me a day to absorb that it is real since it is my first time cause my peers never celebrated theirs so i didn't have the chance to be in one.
tomorrow we are going to buy some clothes for me appropriate for the event. that makes me excited too.

my little baby brother

finally my brother was here. kinda late but it's okay as long as he's here, he's now safe. my baby brother is all grown up now at 22 years old. i can no longer can call him sweetie pig or something since it is no longer appropriate or he can be pissed off upon hearing it. i know he matured a little already and i continue treating him that way though i missed the child named markee. my little baby brother.

i love slippers

i still like the havaianas tropical kit orange.  love seeing them once in a while. though i know it will take some hard time to buy another havaianas i've been eyeing. it's havainas fun in grape. i guess i can only buy that on my birthday. anyways when i started to count my havs, it reaches to 5 including those havs that i have been using. plus, i have some doll shoes and one sckechers tone ups. so many and i am happy.

grounded

here i am again , i splurge on havaianas again. i break the rule of saving. i only have few hundreds on my bank account. oh damn. i am also grounded on using ebay. the issue was i bought another havaianas when our own family financial statements go haywire. my mother is right i shouldn't splurge but my addiction to havaianas is alarming.

now, i guess the violet havaianas i've eyeing will be bought in june, by the time my birthday arrives, i will buy that for myself.

best thing i never had

i am no longer in love with him. finally. how i wished i can say it on his face. the music stops playing for his heart. my heart is now looking for someone else. the poem for him run out of rhyme. the smell of roses withered in a glance. love is not for you anymore. so rejoice and continue your love for someone else. it is meant to be this way so i won't be hurt. good bye mr. player, this is the beginning for something new for me. and i'm lucky you are not the one

regrets on the middle week of january

there are times i had bull shit moments thinking of him.

there are times i regretting why i didn't defend my love for him.

there are times i think if he's worth the fight.

i guess i already learned my lessons and it should end there.

why i shouldn't be in singapore?

all right, so my friend Lorgie wants to work in Singapore and i am happy for her. I know she how to live right together with her father. I admire her on how she loves her father.

But for me, Singapore is a big no-no! it is because the one who broke my heart but never my ex is now based there. I wish if i will visit singapore i won't see him since by now, i know he is taken and seeing him again taken is a bullshit. since i don't have relationships nowadays. how can i have one? since i don't go outside and party and mingle. i don't blame them if they told that to me many times because they were right.

I might go to Alaska, Canada or London instead but definitely no Singapore. it is ok if it's only a tourist visit or connecting  flight but i won/t work thete. i don't want our paths to meet again.

lessons for 2012.

my love life goes a little something like this:

      the storm has passed, it rained hard on my parade, i cried over spilled a milllion times and everytime i see him it killed me softly. i must admit i fell in love with him, for who he are, for the devil he are and i ended up not getting him for me in return because he is good damn liar.But i still love him.

    he is Singapore right now since 2008 and i finally learned he has girlfriend with him there. how adorable that i was researching his whereabouts in the net and all i got is a small picture of him and her on foursquare.com smiling. bullshit. hehehe. a good laugh will end it. a good mischievous laugh. anyways, he's already already almost over me. I should take the taxi away from him instead and start a new life. It is really unworthy crying over spilled milk and that taught me a lesson.

defying gravity

well, i guess all things are under my control. i ended my frienship to a group of girls. i ended my psyhology course. i started working. i felt happy but somehow i wished i didn't missed school. someone is saying their goodbyes and there is someone still in love with someone who doesn't seem to care. irony. well, i guess i must defy the gravity.

blog hiatus for a month i think....

i guess i went to hiatus this last month. i don't have anything to blog about. nothing interesting. it's just that i finally decided to quit school permanently and no intention of going back. i'm no longer pissed off, i still ride his tricycle but i am careful talking to him this time.

you know, everything is boring to me during this period of my life. i guess i may be in hiatus again sooner.

you suck big time

i was pissed off this noontime. i swear i won't ride his tricycle again. he is overpricing my fare to him plus he has the guts to tell me i won't be his customer no more. i hate him. he is so mean. he just waited for me that's it and he's overpricing me. since then, now i won't ride his tricycle again and i will find someone else.

speechless and wishes.

3 celebrations. november. speechless. nothing to blog. too busy. with work. only work. is craving over takoyaki balls. wants to be a call center agent someday.

smooth flowing..

things are running smoothly. my 2 orders didn't came so i can save by the end of the month, i am only using the money or my wage until th 15th and plus the hand me down money from ate lining. eventually, i am debt-free and can save in my bank.

also, nov 4, i have a birthday eatout with my high school friends. usually it is late night at around 7pm. right now it is complicated since i don't know where is the place exactly we will dine

lunch bonding

we had our lunch at Mary Jay restaurant in malabon. it was an ideal time for family bonding. I enjoyed the food and the atmosphere of the bonding of the clan

                                         

long weekend...

yes because it's holiday of the dead. for the first time in many years, i once again visited the mauloseum of the sioson clan. i am happy since i used to go there during my childhood years. now i am an adult, i was in memory lane.

the inner researcher...

my inner researcher is here again. then, i stumbled to my former friend's profile in facebook and i found out she's now working in a call center. well, she looks more classy now than before. i don't see her as a friend anymore since she is only with me if i am at my best, she never considers me a best friend during high school just as she always says during our high school time and she also wasn't there when i feel alone in the world. so that's what you call a best friend. too shallow that's why i dropped her like a hot potato when she tried to contacted me again. i told her i don't know her. anyways, she seems elevated than my status. it's okay though it's like a slap in my face because i can't even passed a call center interview. now, i guess i saw the ending of our rainbow and it will no longer shine like that. i guess i should be picky in choosing call centers now if ever i applied.

direct selling, direct payment

another splurges in avon products. my order finally arrives yesterday costing me less than 700 pesos and must be paid by october 15. i am now eager in making the day present so i can pay in advance.

right now i am hungry and i only took a coffee for breakfast so i can avoid sleepiness.